This Is The Day

“18 For I consider the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us. …. 28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:18 & 28

I find myself clinging to these verses more and more as time goes on.

A few of you know that I have had problems with internet related things.

More than a year ago, my Facebook account was hacked and I was alerted that someone near Albany was signing in to my account. I set up safety features to try and prevent this from happening again, but do not know if any other damage was done then.

Then, about a year ago, my computer was apparently compromised – closing down all security programs to the point that I could not even access their web sites. Then the computer just stopped working. I have not had the finances to repair or replace it, hence my failure to post anything since then.

I went to using my Ipod and then my Kindle to access Facebook- an adventure in itself since the screens and keyboards are so small. I am borrowing someone else’s computer to write this, so am not sure if I will be able to post again for some time, as there are now problems with this too.

Last August, we took my Mom to the emergency room and after various hints of health issues from the doctors; and numerous tests, we were told she had stage 4 lung cancer. She went home to be with the Lord September 16. While we miss her dearly and mourn our loss, we have been able to rejoice in the fact that she is in heaven with her beloved Jesus and will suffer no more.

Also, in the past year, I had noticed a growth on Chloe’s chest, just under her front left leg. It grew and as she licked it, it became raw and bled. I realized in the past few weeks that it had doubled in size; so we took her to the vet yesterday and was told it was probably cancer. Not wanting her to suffer, we had her put down and have buried her next to her sister, Leah, in the back garden.

As for myself, the pain and limitations from all the injuries suffered over the years have continued, with the added bonus of having some kind of problem with my inner ears that is causing vertigo to the extent that I have just fallen sideways numerous times. The few times that there was nothing or no one to grab hold of, I have just gone right over on the floor.

Praise God there were no more than a couple of these incidents and no resulting injuries from these falls! The situation is improving steadily and the dizziness is much less.

I cannot in all honesty say I have had 100% peace through all this. I find there are a few things that have bothered me and pulled my eyes downward. But I am getting better at keeping my eyes on Him and not on the problems, and only allow the problem to get the better of me temporarily.

I thank God daily for His strength and support. I have delved more deeply into His Word, drawing on His promises and the knowledge that He is in control.

Thank You Father for the grace and mercy that You shower on Your children.

“This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.” Psalm 118:24

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2016

GOODBYE LEAH

My heart is heavy this morning, filled with the pain of loss.

My beloved Leah died in the night last night.

We are not sure what happened. She seemed fine yesterday morning, but during the day I noticed she was acting funny. Her nose was running like someone had turned on a faucet, and she kept throwing up.

She took herself off to an empty part of the house and if someone came too close, she went somewhere else.

Last night I found her laying on the bedroom floor, between some boxes in front of my closet, barely moving. I sat with her for a while, but when Chloe came to crawl into my lap, Leah moved herself around to put her back to us.

This did not surprise me as Chloe was always chasing Leah and picking on her.

I took Chloe and went back to the living room, trying to give Leah some peace.

Sometime during the night she crawled to Bill’s side of the bed, we think to be closer to him, and then died. He found her this morning at 5:30.

While my heart is broken at losing my sweet kitty; I had prepared myself for this long ago; even praying for it in a way.

That may sound strange; but there was good reason.

When I first got Kayla, I fell headlong in love with her.

Then one day I realized that when I was raptured, she was going to be left here to go through the Tribulation. I did not want to go through any time without her, and I began to pray that when that time came, the Lord would put His hand on her and just put her to sleep.

As some of you know, that is not what happened. Kayla got cancer and had to be put down in 2010.

As we added to our pet population, I began to pray that somehow the Lord would take care of each one.

We lost Sandy last October.

As I have watched the unfolding news the past few months — the Boston Bombings, the schools shootings, the deadly explosion in Texas, the scandals in Washington, the ever increasing targeting and persecution of Conservatives and Christians in this country, the attacks on Christians by the Muslim extremists, and the weather related disasters — I have felt more and more weighted down.

The Bible makes clear that in the end times, life will be difficult, even perilous.

Things have spiraled down so far, so quickly, I feel that we are at the door of the end; if not already through that door.

A while back I had a dream/vision where I was in a detention camp for Christians. It was so real I was surprised to find myself still in my home afterward.  I am not sure if this was the Lord telling me to prepare myself for what was coming or if it was a byproduct of an active imagination reacting to everything that is going on around the world.

Whatever it meant, I am praying for strength and guidance in case it comes to be.  I was thinking that I wrote an article about it, but the only one I could find did not mention this dream specifically.

My mother has had continuing thoughts of an army coming in and taking over, kicking us out of our homes so they can live in them and taking everything away from us.

I have read of people having dreams that the United States is going to collapse and be invaded by Russia and China.

All of this has made me look at Chloe and Leah and pray that they would not have to suffer through what may be coming.

God answered that prayer for Leah last night.

So, now we are down to having just Chloe; and I am preparing my heart to lose her also.

“Trick or treat!”

But in all of this God has been Faithful and Good.

This morning as Bill and I stood on our deck drinking coffee and talking about Leah, we looked across the road and there walking through the brush was a momma deer and her new baby, just barely up to her knees.

God knew I needed some kind of affirmation of life and gave me a clear assurance that He is here with me, loving me and comforting me in my loss.

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As I was reading through this post, I remembered my warning about not clicking on any links because I thought I had been hacked.    I have since discovered I was not hacked – it was because of some app that came with a photo program I downloaded.  So if you care to read my other pet articles, I believe it is safe to click on the links embedded in each name.

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© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2013