God’s Working In My Life

I come this morning, in humble joyousness for the work that the Lord God has done in my life. Our God is awesome. Powerful. Loving. Merciful. Gracious.

He has given me the love and power to overcome a past filled with pain and heartache. He has led me through battles that, without Him, would have crushed my soul. He has strengthened me as I faced this hostile world with only Him at my back. He has held me up as I faced down the lies and deception that were perpetrated against me.

He has wrapped me in His arms as I have cried out the tears and anguish that have overwhelmed me more times than I can count. He has given me the courage to face down my fears and hand them over to Him, conquering what Satan would have used for my destruction.

He has been my rock and my shield. My strength and my Hope.

He brought me through a childhood brain injury that the doctors said should have killed me, and, at the very least should have left me mentally impaired. He has brought me through subsequent injuries that, though not yet healed, I have full hope and expectation that He will deal with in His good time and pleasure.

I am sure of this, and declare His healing power as I sit now and listen to Lauren Daigle with an ear that had been completely deaf.

I had suffered from an ear infection while in Elementary School, and a burst ear drum in my right ear as a result of that infection. He healed that burst eardrum, not allowing it to take my hearing. Then as an adult, I had been to too many rock concerts, listened to too much music with headphones on, and had destroyed my hearing completely in my right ear.

Recently I had begun to ask for restoration of my hearing and began to listen to old Hymns, and Praise and Worship music more than ever. I felt led to pray that the power of the words and the praise in those songs would work through my ears and heal the damage. I had noticed a slight change, but nothing really significant.

It was Sunday, as I listened to the live streaming service from Faith Chapel in Syracuse, that I realized there was a wall between me and my Savior. I tried to feel Him with me and couldn‘t.

“Why can’t I feel You?’ I cried.

And right then Pastor Kelly took the stage and began to talk about fear, and the fact that we have not been given a spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind. Even though I had thought I had already dealt with the fear, I felt a check in my spirit and felt the Spirit of God urging me to let go. I held my hands out and felt the fear leave me. The presence of the Lord, His love and strength filled me, and I was finally able to submit to Him in complete surrender.

Then Pastor Kelly walked to the woman playing the piano and this woman said that she had been given a word from the Lord. There was someone that was having a tickling, something, in their right ear; and the Lord wanted to heal it. My hands shot up as if on a string and I said, “That’s me, Lord. I claim this healing.”

A couple hours later, I was talking to my brother on the phone and as a test I put the phone to my right ear. I could hear him!

The level of his voice was loud, but the words were muffled, as if he was yelling through a wall. BUT I COULD HEAR HIM!

A little later, I was praying and thanking God for His answer to my prayer; and I asked Him why He had not restored my hearing completely. He reminded me of all the times that I had said I did not want to take so many pain pills that the pain from the aforementioned injuries would be dulled so much I would forget about the injury and do something to re-injure it or make it worse. (Been there, done that. Too many times to count.)

So I asked Him, “But what does that have to do with my ear?”

The answer that I got was “Because I don’t want you to forget Me.”

The words were as clear as if He had actually spoken them out loud and I knew immediately what He meant.

I become so engrossed with my day-to-day living that quite often God is relegated to the back of my thoughts – there should I need Him, but not front and center in my thoughts the way He deserves to be.

He was telling me that if He healed me completely, my past history showed that I would not be as focused on Him as I have been for the past few weeks; and He did not want to lose that immediate, unending connection that we have been having.

Tears rolled down my face as His love and concern for me filled me.

I had the TV on as I sat there, and within minutes of this exchange, I heard the pastor that was on ask the question “Why doesn’t God heal you completely?” And then he answered the question with: “Because He doesn’t want you to forget Him.”

I was overwhelmed at this affirmation of what He had just said to me. I hit the record button and saved the program onto the DVR.

Since then, I have been periodically covering my left ear, testing my hearing to see if there is any other improvement. I must say that I have had a constant earache since Sunday, but I am able to hear things that I would not have been able to hear before — the sound of the fan motor, the TV and of course the praise and worship songs.

And then yesterday my husband was telling me something and I plugged my left ear with a finger and asked him to continue talking to me in a normal voice. His voice was muffled, but where I would not have been able to hear anything a week ago, I could hear him enough to be able to repeat his question back to him and answer him.

And as I postscript …

I decided to play back the TV recording from Sunday as I was writing this to make sure I got the pastor’s exact words. I discovered the sermon was about forgetting God in our day to day living — and nowhere can I find the question and following answer that I heard Sunday afternoon.

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2020

God Is Moving

Good morning.

It is quiet today. Not so quiet as it’s been for these past six months, but still quiet compared to what it was like a year ago.

My heart breaks for all those that have suffered through these past months, the loss of loved ones, finances and health have certainly taken a toll on those around us.

But, if I am honest – and I have a tendency to be painfully honest – I have enjoyed these months of forced separation. As I have previously admitted, I am a ‘home-body’; preferring to be at home with a hot cup of coffee and either my Bible or a good book. (And I have read quite a few during this shutdown, but I will save that for later.)

I have wondered what the Lord was doing in this pandemic; why He was allowing it and how He was using it to bring about His perfect will. I have heard more than one minister, Christian talk-show host, or prophecy scholar say that it was giving us time to press into the Lord; to abide under His wings and walk closer into His perfect will.

The pause basically left us with time to spend on our relationship with Him – took us away from the outside influences that seem to suck up all of our time and attention, took us away from each other, and left us with only Him to turn to.

And I have seen that here, in my life.

I had been asking for more time to spend with Him, more time to spend in His Word and in conversation with Him. I am in no way suggesting that my prayer for a closer walk is what brought about this enforced shutdown; but it turned out to be an answer to my prayers nonetheless.

Through things going on with me personally and things that are going on in the lives of those closest to me, I have found my faith and my trust in my Heavenly Father growing exponentially.

It is when you have had your earthly support system stripped away, when you are forced to stand alone and face an uncertain future, that His strength is what we need to rely on.

Over the years I had my earthly support system taken from me, leaving me standing alone with just Jesus to turn to; and I have learned that He is really all that I need. These past months have solidified that knowledge for me; and because of my acknowledgment of my complete dependence on Him, He has begun to rebuild my support system with at least one person that is so strong in the faith, it makes me crave that same depth of Spirit-filled life.

And, Praise God! He is leading me into a Holy-Spirit-led existence that far exceeds anything I have ever known. He is leading me in my prayer life, in a spiritual battle for people around me, showing me how to use the power of Jesus’ name to fight for family and friends.

And I am seeing, and feeling, evidence of His love and mercy.

I have a family member that has been suffering through debilitating physical injuries and financial loss due to losing his job. I have been praying for his healing and have had my ‘mentor’ praying also. It was during a phone call with this person that they began to pray for the suffering family member, and as they prayed, thoughts came into my head. And with each thought that came into my mind, the person praying began to pray those exact things. Soon, tears were running down my face as I realized that God was moving within the situation and was both hearing my thoughts and directing the prayer. And when this person began to pray for me, and how I was to respond to my concern for the hurting family member, I immediately felt a Presence at my shoulder and saw a ‘form’ out of the corner of my eye. And then I could feel an actual physical warmth and pressure on my arms and sides as if someone had wrapped a heavy, warm blanket tightly around me. It was not my imagination, but a physical pressure and weight that enveloped me like a blanket. I was bathed in the warmth and love of my Savior, filled to overflowing with His presence and strength.

I have spent many a time on my knees, tears streaming down my face for loved ones, claiming the power of Jesus’ blood, shed at the cross, crying out for healing and restoration; and have gotten clear assurance that He is in control of these situations and that I am to lean into Him and trust Him while He works through them.

And, with my growing faith and prayer life, I have continued to pray for this nation.

One of the books I have read is “The Circle Maker” by Mark Batterson. This book inspired me to find photos online of the White House, the Capital Building and the Supreme Court and to pray over them as I circle them with my finger.

I watch the riots and destruction going on in liberal cities and again wonder why the Lord is allowing it. I have come up with a few possibilities.

  1. He will continue to expose the corruption and evil that is rampant and use the knowledge to reach the people and bring about a world-wide awakening.
  2. He will use this to bring about the complete control of the nation to the socialists and usher in a time of persecution of all those that oppose them.
  3. He will use this to bring about the complete collapse of this nation; which will set the stage for the Rapture and the seven year Tribulation.
  4. All of the above in whatever order He so chooses.

But, whatever His will, I think it will be powerful and unmistakable.

And maybe that is why He is allowing these things to happen at this time. To get our attention away from this world. To focus our attention back on Him and to prepare us for what is coming.

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2020