My heart is heavy this morning, filled with the pain of loss.

My beloved Leah died in the night last night.


We are not sure what happened. She seemed fine yesterday morning, but during the day I noticed she was acting funny. Her nose was running like someone had turned on a faucet, and she kept throwing up.

She took herself off to an empty part of the house and if someone came too close, she went somewhere else.

Last night I found her laying on the bedroom floor, between some boxes in front of my closet, barely moving. I sat with her for a while, but when Chloe came to crawl into my lap, Leah moved herself around to put her back to us.

This did not surprise me as Chloe was always chasing Leah and picking on her.

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I took Chloe and went back to the living room, trying to give Leah some peace.

Sometime during the night she crawled to Bill’s side of the bed, we think to be closer to him, and then died. He found her this morning at 5:30.

While my heart is broken at losing my sweet kitty; I had prepared myself for this long ago; even praying for it in a way.

That may sound strange; but there was good reason.

When I first got Kayla, I fell headlong in love with her.


Then one day I realized that when I was raptured, she was going to be left here to go through the Tribulation. I did not want to go through any time without her, and I began to pray that when that time came, the Lord would put His hand on her and just put her to sleep.

As some of you know, that is not what happened. Kayla got cancer and had to be put down in 2010.

As we added to our pet population, I began to pray that somehow the Lord would take care of each one.

We lost Sandy last October.


As I have watched the unfolding news the past few months — the Boston Bombings, the schools shootings, the deadly explosion in Texas, the scandals in Washington, the ever increasing targeting and persecution of Conservatives and Christians in this country, the attacks on Christians by the Muslim extremists, and the weather related disasters — I have felt more and more weighted down.

The Bible makes clear that in the end times, life will be difficult, even perilous.

Things have spiraled down so far, so quickly, I feel that we are at the door of the end; if not already through that door.

A while back I had a dream/vision where I was in a detention camp for Christians. It was so real I was surprised to find myself still in my home afterward.  I am not sure if this was the Lord telling me to prepare myself for what was coming or if it was a byproduct of an active imagination reacting to everything that is going on around the world.

Whatever it meant, I am praying for strength and guidance in case it comes to be.  I was thinking that I wrote an article about it, but the only one I could find did not mention this dream specifically.

My mother has had continuing thoughts of an army coming in and taking over, kicking us out of our homes so they can live in them and taking everything away from us.

I have read of people having dreams that the United States is going to collapse and be invaded by Russia and China.

All of this has made me look at Chloe and Leah and pray that they would not have to suffer through what may be coming.

God answered that prayer for Leah last night.

So, now we are down to having just Chloe; and I am preparing my heart to lose her also.

"Trick or treat!"

“Trick or treat!”

But in all of this God has been Faithful and Good.

This morning as Bill and I stood on our deck drinking coffee and talking about Leah, we looked across the road and there walking through the brush was a momma deer and her new baby, just barely up to her knees.

God knew I needed some kind of affirmation of life and gave me a clear assurance that He is here with me, loving me and comforting me in my loss.


As I was reading through this post, I remembered my warning about not clicking on any links because I thought I had been hacked.    I have since discovered I was not hacked – it was because of some app that came with a photo program I downloaded.  So if you care to read my other pet articles, I believe it is safe to click on the links embedded in each name.

© Drusilla Mott and, 2013


Part 1 of this series is found here.

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The dictionary defines Hell as the place where the souls of people who are damned suffer eternal punishment after death, a place of suffering, a state or place of extreme pain and misery.

The Bible says that Hell is the place of eternal torment.

Matthew 25:41 describes Hell as everlasting fire that was prepared for the devil and his angels, verse 46 adds that those that go to Hell will go away into everlasting punishment.

In II Thessalonians 1:8 we read those that do not know God (unbelieving Gentiles) and those who do not obey the gospel of Jesus Christ (unbelieving Jews that knew about God but who rejected his Son) will be punished with everlasting destruction from the presence of the Lord.

And Revelation 19:20 says Hell is a lake of fire, burning with brimstone.

We see from these verses what Hell is like, now we must consider the question of who will spend eternity there.

It is the place where the beast and the false prophet will go , and where those people will go that worship the beast and his image. Rev. 19:20; 14:11

It is also the place that the disobedient and the rejecters of Jesus Christ will go after the judgment. Romans 2:8,9; Matthew 10:15

Once in Hell, can a person leave? As the following verses show, the answer to that question is “No”.

The punishment of Hell will be eternal and unchangeable. Isaiah 32:14; Luke 16:22-31

The punishment will be bodily and in the soul. Matthew 5:29-30; Matthew 10:28

Inhabitants of Hell will cry for release, but will not be able to escape. Luke 16:24

Hebrews 9:27 says it is appointed unto man once to die and then the judgment.

The time to make a decision for or against Jesus Christ is now. You cannot change your destination once you die.

When I think of the descriptions for Hell, I see what resembles an active volcano, as all the old paintings show.

Would you want to spend eternity inside a volcano with no way of escape?

No?  Then why think of Hell as a place to party with all your friends?

Do you now think that Hell is not where you want to spend eternity?

How do we make sure that we do not go to Hell when we die?

By accepting the gift of salvation that God offers us through a believing knowledge and acceptance of His Son Jesus Christ.

Do you want to know how to do that? Read the articles under the You Must Be Born Again menu in the header above.

© Drusilla Mott and, 2012