Commit Your Way to God

In one of my recent posts, I admitted to struggling when it came to my writing. For months, each time I would sit down to try and come up with a post, my mind would be a large empty vacuum – a black hole where all of my creative thoughts had disappeared.

The thoughts, the ideas, the words. They were all gone.

As I came to this realization, I began to pray and plead for some leading as to why I had lost my talent. I read somewhere that if we are given a talent from God and we let it languish away, we will lose it. That idea scared me and my pleading took on an intensity that bordered on desperation.

Writing had been my dream since I was a little girl and the idea that I could have lost it because I wasn’t using it terrified me. All I could see was myself standing before Jesus at the end of my life and having to explain why I wasted the talent He had given me, and why I had not fulfilled my life’s purpose.

In another post I told of someone I knew that God had allowed to be stripped of all earthly support because she was not completely trusting and relying on Him.

I realized I had, in my own way, come to the end of myself where my writing is concerned. My distress over my writer’s block created in me a need to solve the problem. To figure out what I should be doing, what I should be writing about.

You see, I still find myself, quite often, with the need to do it myself, to figure things out on my own.  I find a lot of things beyond my physical ability, but will insist on struggling with the task instead of asking my husband for help.

I do the same with God. I tell myself I am relying on Him, but at the same time, I am relying on my own power and my own actions – on my works. I ask for His leading, while in the back of my mind I am racing around trying to solve the problem myself. I hand it to Him and then promptly take it back to fuss over and worry about.

I mean, surely, I have to be doing something ….. right??

Or, maybe not ……

My ‘doing’ was getting me nowhere.

And so I began a search to figure out what was wrong.

And in my searching and discovery, I was led to study the Holy Spirit and His work in our lives. I must admit that I knew about the Holy Spirit on a surface level – knew His attributes,  and His purpose in our lives – to a certain extent.

But there is so much that I just did not understand – still do not understand – and reading someone else’s thoughts and experiences, their life lessons, is like turning a light bulb on inside my mind.

There is an ‘Ah-hah!’ moment when I read something that is just so clear and concise I think “Why didn’t I see that before?!”

And what I discovered was that I had gone back to my original way of writing – relying on myself to try and figure out what to write about and what to say.  I was striving against the Lord, taking the control back and not abiding as we are admonished to.

I was trying to do it myself, and all of my searching and anxiety and feverish attempts to figure it out on my own was blocking the Holy Spirit from leading me into the paths He wanted me to go.

As soon as I acknowledged this, and gave myself over to complete surrender, I felt a wave of peace and contentment rise up in me; and suddenly words and thoughts were flooding through my mind so quickly I had to pray that I not be allowed to lose them until I could get them written down.

 

“Commit your works to the Lord

and your thoughts will be established.”

PSALM 16:3

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2018

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On Intercessory Prayer by Rev. Andrew Murray

“”If ye abide in Me, and My words abide in you,

ask whatsoever ye will, and it shall be done unto you.”

John 15:7

 

“The supplication of a righteous man availeth much in its working.” James 5:16

 

“Beloved, if our heart condemn us not, we have boldness toward God; and whatsoever we ask, we receive of Him, because we keep His commandments, and do the things that are pleasing in His sight.” 1 John 3:21&22

 

Our power in prayer depends  upon our life. Where our life is right we shall know how to pray so as to please God, and prayer will secure the answer.  The texts quoted above all point in this direction.  “If ye abide in Me”, our Lord says, ye shall ask, and it shall be done unto you. It is the prayer of a righteous man, according to James, that availeth much.  We receive whatsoever we ask, John says, because we obey and please God. All lack of power to pray aright and perseveringly, all lack of power in prayer with God, points to some lack in the Christian life.  It is as we learn to live the life that pleases God, that God will give what we ask. Let us learn from our Lord Jesus, in the parable of the vine, what the healthy, vigorous life is that may ask and receive what it will. Hear His voice, “If ye abide in Me, and My words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.” And again at the close of the parable: “Ye did not choose Me, but I chose you, and appointed you, that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should abide: that whatsoever ye shall ask that Father in my name, He may give it you.”

 

And what is now, according to the parable, the life that one must lead to bear fruit, and then ask and receive what we will? What is it we are to be or do, that will enable us to pray as we should, and to receive what we ask? The answer is in one word: it is the branch-life that gives power for prayer. We are branches of Christ, the Living Vine. We must simply live like branches, and abide in Christ, then we shall ask what we will, and it shall be done unto us.

We all know what a branch is, and what its essential characteristic. It is simply a growth of the vine, produced by it and appointed to bear fruit. It has only one reason of existence; it is there at the bidding of the vine, that through it the vine may bear and ripen its precious fruit. Just as the vine only and solely and wholly lives to produce the sap that makes the grape, so the branch has no other aim and object but this alone, to receive that sap and bear the grape. Its only work is to serve the vine, that through it the vine may do its work.

And the believer, the branch of Christ the Heavenly Vine, is it to be understood that he is as literally, as exclusively, to live only that Christ may bear fruit through him? Is it meant that a true Christian as a branch is to be just as absorbed in and devoted to the work of bearing fruit to the glory of God as Christ the Vine was on earth, and is now in heaven? This, and nothing less, is indeed what is meant. It is to such that the unlimited prayer promises of the parable are given. It is the branch-life, existing solely for the Vine, that will have the power to pray aright. With our life abiding in Him, and His words abiding, kept and obeyed, in our heart and life, transmuted into our very being, there will be the grace to pray aright, and the faith to receive the whatsoever we will.”

 

From “THE MINISTRY OF INTERCESSION A PLEA FOR MORE PRAYER”

BY THE  REV. ANDREW MURRAY WELLINGTON, S. AFRICA. 1898