Will you join me in fasting and prayer?

As I have watched the events of the past year play out, I have spent much time in prayer. I have spent a few days in fasting and prayer, but I am wondering if we could all get together and spend this next week in fasting and prayer. Would you join me as we humble ourselves and confess our sin – both individual and the collective sins of this nation – and seek God’s face?

Psalm 66.18:

If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me.”

We all must recognize the fact that we are all in bondage to sin and that sin blocks revival. We must be aware of the basis for our sin – whether it is sinful habits, demonic influences, or being enslaved by our past sins and mistakes. We must recognize it and repent of it. We must recognize, confess and stand in the gap, repenting for the sins committed in this nation while the church has been asleep at the wheel.

I place myself at the top of this list because of my blindness and my self-centered living that has stopped me from seeing and acknowledging just where this country has been heading. I was so focused on the problems in my life that I was completely unaware of what was happening around me.

What I have learned recently is that there is sin that is unseen, unfelt, unacknowledged in me. The Lord has been merciful and gracious in leading me in a journey of discovery that has shown me I had been sinning in things that I did not realize was sin. I have discovered that I have been mislead, deceived, manipulated by the enemy to not see, to not realize where this nation is heading.

God has ‘taken me to school’ where my own sin is concerned and has shown me where I have failed in my responsibility to pray and seek God’s intervention where this nation is concerned. And now I have been feeling a deep need, a deep Spirit-led weight to seek out God’s forgiveness, His will and His desire for the future of this nation.

I am going to fast Monday November 9, Wednesday November 11 and
Friday November 13. I have discovered on previous fasts that it is not a hardship for me to not eat breakfast and lunch if I have a couple cups of coffee throughout the day, but it is much more difficult for me to give up my coffee. So, I am going to refrain from the things that will be hardest for me to give up – coffee and most foods – only eating enough to keep my blood sugar at a healthy level. I will eat normally (which for me recently has been mostly vegetarian) on Tuesday and Thursday.

2 Chronicles 7.13-14:

“13 If I shut up heaven that there be no rain, or if I command the locusts to devour the land, or if I send pestilence among my people;  14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.”

I don’t know if our prayers are too little, too late, but Micah 7 says :

“17 … They shall be afraid of the LORD our God, and shall fear because of thee. 18 Who is a God like unto thee, that pardoneth iniquity, and passeth by the transgression of the remnant of his heritage? he retaineth not his anger for ever, because he delighteth in mercy. 19 He will turn again, he will have compassion upon us; he will subdue our iniquities; and thou wilt cast all their sins into the depths of the sea.”

Will you join me in seeking His face and seeking forgiveness for this great country of ours?

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2020

God’s Working In My Life

I come this morning, in humble joyousness for the work that the Lord God has done in my life. Our God is awesome. Powerful. Loving. Merciful. Gracious.

He has given me the love and power to overcome a past filled with pain and heartache. He has led me through battles that, without Him, would have crushed my soul. He has strengthened me as I faced this hostile world with only Him at my back. He has held me up as I faced down the lies and deception that were perpetrated against me.

He has wrapped me in His arms as I have cried out the tears and anguish that have overwhelmed me more times than I can count. He has given me the courage to face down my fears and hand them over to Him, conquering what Satan would have used for my destruction.

He has been my rock and my shield. My strength and my Hope.

He brought me through a childhood brain injury that the doctors said should have killed me, and, at the very least should have left me mentally impaired. He has brought me through subsequent injuries that, though not yet healed, I have full hope and expectation that He will deal with in His good time and pleasure.

I am sure of this, and declare His healing power as I sit now and listen to Lauren Daigle with an ear that had been completely deaf.

I had suffered from an ear infection while in Elementary School, and a burst ear drum in my right ear as a result of that infection. He healed that burst eardrum, not allowing it to take my hearing. Then as an adult, I had been to too many rock concerts, listened to too much music with headphones on, and had destroyed my hearing completely in my right ear.

Recently I had begun to ask for restoration of my hearing and began to listen to old Hymns, and Praise and Worship music more than ever. I felt led to pray that the power of the words and the praise in those songs would work through my ears and heal the damage. I had noticed a slight change, but nothing really significant.

It was Sunday, as I listened to the live streaming service from Faith Chapel in Syracuse, that I realized there was a wall between me and my Savior. I tried to feel Him with me and couldn‘t.

“Why can’t I feel You?’ I cried.

And right then Pastor Kelly took the stage and began to talk about fear, and the fact that we have not been given a spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind. Even though I had thought I had already dealt with the fear, I felt a check in my spirit and felt the Spirit of God urging me to let go. I held my hands out and felt the fear leave me. The presence of the Lord, His love and strength filled me, and I was finally able to submit to Him in complete surrender.

Then Pastor Kelly walked to the woman playing the piano and this woman said that she had been given a word from the Lord. There was someone that was having a tickling, something, in their right ear; and the Lord wanted to heal it. My hands shot up as if on a string and I said, “That’s me, Lord. I claim this healing.”

A couple hours later, I was talking to my brother on the phone and as a test I put the phone to my right ear. I could hear him!

The level of his voice was loud, but the words were muffled, as if he was yelling through a wall. BUT I COULD HEAR HIM!

A little later, I was praying and thanking God for His answer to my prayer; and I asked Him why He had not restored my hearing completely. He reminded me of all the times that I had said I did not want to take so many pain pills that the pain from the aforementioned injuries would be dulled so much I would forget about the injury and do something to re-injure it or make it worse. (Been there, done that. Too many times to count.)

So I asked Him, “But what does that have to do with my ear?”

The answer that I got was “Because I don’t want you to forget Me.”

The words were as clear as if He had actually spoken them out loud and I knew immediately what He meant.

I become so engrossed with my day-to-day living that quite often God is relegated to the back of my thoughts – there should I need Him, but not front and center in my thoughts the way He deserves to be.

He was telling me that if He healed me completely, my past history showed that I would not be as focused on Him as I have been for the past few weeks; and He did not want to lose that immediate, unending connection that we have been having.

Tears rolled down my face as His love and concern for me filled me.

I had the TV on as I sat there, and within minutes of this exchange, I heard the pastor that was on ask the question “Why doesn’t God heal you completely?” And then he answered the question with: “Because He doesn’t want you to forget Him.”

I was overwhelmed at this affirmation of what He had just said to me. I hit the record button and saved the program onto the DVR.

Since then, I have been periodically covering my left ear, testing my hearing to see if there is any other improvement. I must say that I have had a constant earache since Sunday, but I am able to hear things that I would not have been able to hear before — the sound of the fan motor, the TV and of course the praise and worship songs.

And then yesterday my husband was telling me something and I plugged my left ear with a finger and asked him to continue talking to me in a normal voice. His voice was muffled, but where I would not have been able to hear anything a week ago, I could hear him enough to be able to repeat his question back to him and answer him.

And as I postscript …

I decided to play back the TV recording from Sunday as I was writing this to make sure I got the pastor’s exact words. I discovered the sermon was about forgetting God in our day to day living — and nowhere can I find the question and following answer that I heard Sunday afternoon.

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2020