At an Impasse

This winter has been an odd one.

Days of bitterly cold and snow, mixed with an almost spring-like warmth. High in the 50s one day, only to drop into the teens the next. Storms that brought 2-3 feet of snow followed by warm temps and rain, with the inevitable flooding that came with those fluctuations.

Life has been quiet, not much activity here, other than the various jobs around the house and some crafts and hobbies that keep us occupied.

I have spent some time out taking pictures and posting them on my photo blog Highways and Byways; using PhotoScape for some fun alterations and learning a little bit about post-processing techniques.

But I find myself at an impasse.

When it comes to writing, my mind is a blank. When I study my Bible, I find myself trying to find a lesson, something, anything, to write about. All to no avail.

When I read a book or watch TV, I try to find my own story to tell; but the words seem to shrivel up before they even form. Usually a Hallmark movie will give me an idea for a story of my own; but even with all the Christmas movies I watched, there was nothing forthcoming.

Where before I had words and ideas crowding into my thoughts, pushing to get out, now there is just silence.

Writing used to be my comfort zone, my place where I was filled with a purpose, and a peace that told me I was doing what I was meant to do. The words used to flow, God filling me with them even as my fingers flew across the keyboard.

But, now, trying to force the words to come, the ideas to form, has only caused frustration and a slowly building resignation. And the few words that do come, are stilted, hard, uneven.

Sure signs that they are not what they should be.

Pray, you say?

I have.

Nothing changes.

And I don’t know what to do about it.

 

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2018

Share Your World – 2014 Week 9

Here are Cee’s questions for Share Your World – week 9 and my answers, (pictures included at no extra charge):

Would you prefer a reading nook or an art, craft, photography studio?

Well, I have turned my son’s old room into an office/craft/Jeff Gordon room.

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And, no, this desk is not always so neat. Most of the time you can’t see the desktop for all the stuff on top of it.  I had just cleaned it off to do my Bible Study and decided to take a picture – it did not stay this way for very long.

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I have always wanted a window seat with thick cushions and pillows, big enough to stretch out comfortably to read or just sit and look outside.

Something like this one, which I found on Facebook:

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Would you prefer the TV in the living room or another room?

Always wanted the TV in another room, until my other room was taken by someone else.  Now I have one in the living room.

What color would you like your bedroom to be?

My favorite color is blue, and our bedroom used to be a beautiful shade of baby blue, but when we remodeled and hubby build shelves into the walls, we put up a flowered paneling with pink flowers and green leaves.

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I have been considering painting it a pale yellowish cream to match the rest of the house and make it a little brighter.

Would you prefer a one floor house or multiple levels?

My dream home has both a grand front staircase leading to the bedrooms upstairs and a small back staircase off the kitchen leading to ‘my’ office, craft room.  But, it was not God’s will that we buy the house that I fell in love with years ago.  Which is probably a good thing now, because I am not sure if our knees could take daily hikes up those long stairs at the front of the house.

Bonus question:  What are you grateful for from last week, and what are you looking forward to in the week coming up?

I am grateful for God watching over my son the past month while he was in Turkey and bringing him safely home last week.

What I am looking forward to this week is a little bit of warmer weather.  They are actually calling for upper 20’s to lower 30’s for the next 10 days – a regular heat wave compared to what we’ve been getting.

Thanks for stopping in.  As always, you can Share Your World by leaving your answers in the comments or by writing your own post and linking to  Cee’s blog.

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© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2014