Lessons Learned 6 – It Is Worth It

As I struggled with each of the problems that I was facing, I began to feel like God had gone on vacation and was leaving me here to fend for myself.

I asked for guidance, direction, some kind of acknowledgment that He was here fighting for me.

I began wondering if I was doing everything wrong, and this was His way of bringing me back into line.

I felt abandoned, forsaken and alone.

And that feeling only added to my unhappiness.

I was in pain almost continuously, leaving me unable to do the most mundane things.

I could not lose weight no matter what I did. And every time I reset my resolve to exercise and eat right, something happened to knock me off track.

Everything that I tried to do or touch went wrong.

And I could not get away from any of it.

In the back of my mind I could hear all those TV preachers promising that if God wanted you to do something, he would supply everything you needed to do it.

But, He wasn’t. Not that I could see.

And then I read Ephesians chapter 3, and He opened my eyes to the message that was there for me.

“3:14 For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, 15 of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named. 16 That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man; 17 that Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love, 18 May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height; and to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.” (KJV)

Sitting on this side of that awful winter, I can look at myself and recognize that I want my life to be easy. I do not want the constant struggles, the pain and inability to accomplish mundane tasks on my own.

I want to be able to breeze through my tasks with no stumbling blocks thrown in my way. I want to set out to lose weight and be able to get it done yesterday with no impediments.

But I also acknowledge the fact that if it was that easy, it would be taken for granted and the accomplishment would not be fully appreciated. I need the struggles to keep me humble and to make me appreciate the good times more.

If everything was as easy as I would like it to be, I would not feel the need to draw on the Lord’s strength.  I would not feel the need to pull closer to Him and turn to Him for help.  I would go through my days focusing on the task at hand and rely on myself for the abilities and power to accomplish it all.

I need to be able to see that in my weakness, God is the One that makes me strong; and know that it is not through my own power that I have accomplished what He asked me to do.

I know this in my heart, but am honest enough to admit that I can be rather stiff-necked and unyielding when it comes to wanting things my way, and I need a reminder every now and then that I have to humble myself and yield to God’s direction and will.

God does not promise us that doing what He wants us to do will be easy. This life is difficult. What He does promise is that He will be with us through it all and will give us the strength to overcome the hurdles and accomplish what is His will.

Because He loves us with a love that is unfathomable.

No. It may not be easy. But it will be worth it in the end.

© Drusilla Mott and https://drusillamott.wordpress.com, 2014


I will be posting the final lesson next week.  If you have missed any of this series and want to read those articles, you can click on the LESSONS LEARNED menu in the header above.


2 thoughts on “Lessons Learned 6 – It Is Worth It

  1. Thanks again for your encouraging post. it calmed my spirit and soothed my heart and mind. It was a part of my morning devotional. Thank you for letting God use you to touch my life.


    • Oh, Temia, I am so glad this has helped. I have said before that I sometimes wonder about being so transparent about my struggles of faith. I read all these blogs where the writer seems so sure and strong in their faith and it makes me feel like I am failing somehow. To know that there are others that share my struggles and are helped by my confessions of doubt helps me understand that good is coming from the problems. I continue to pray for you. God bless your day.


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